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Hi Guys

Been quite some time sice I lasted blogged...I won't blame it on anything, as that's how how life turned out heh. Blaming doesn't produce much if it is just restricted to bitching. God gave us a tough life to exercise reason. Bascially, I have a busy army life even right until I finished. (someone said it 'sucked' to be me lol)

Truth be told, lots of things have happened to me for the past few weeks. Outfield just finished, ended a really busy day, bro's flying off soon, a good friend has flown off to study, one gonna start studying real soon, Chruch stuff, same old busy infantry, study plans not finalised yet and as of late, considering a lot about my future.

If you'd like to know, I am currently aiming for medicine and not turn out as a big bucks generating machine...but to really respond to the needs of others personally and within my abilities/capacities. Doctors Without Borders? So far 3 rejections out of a possible 6. Called for interviews (not rejected outright w/o interview), and I am learning interviews the hard way :P

Call me an idealist, but I would like to make more than a difference in the world. Be careful, it's not about status or doing lots of great stuff, but to reflect God's Love in the lives of others. Not that I am on some missionary trip to get more people singing hyms in Chruches, but to love others as God as loved us underserving sinners first. He loved us to the extent of cancelling our transgressions with His blood, giving us wise direction in His Word, gifting a counsellor to aid us, granting us the ability to lead fruitful lives and awaiting for our return back to Him. I am not the object of my life, God is, and there are needs out there than rank higher than my own. Definately it will be a serious and life-long conviction to answer them.

I admit, I have my shortcomings and there is space for improvement in some of my relationships. It is pretty easy to be morph a good intention for others into something that satisfies the self. I'd easily expect any cynic to bash my idealism, it maybe too saccharine. Well, I would respect their opinion but in the end, it's the life I choose to lead, it is my responsibility and a collaboration with God.

After a long talk (and walk) with a good friend, I find myself still at the crossroads of the many possible paths of my future. Even though I have decided on taking up medicine, but there are just sooooo many ways I could live my life. Get married? What is my focus in life? What skills to take up? Don't forget, do I still have God's Purpose in my sights?

Important to keep praying to God to guide me along my path of life, and to assume my own responsibility in the process of living out my life in God's Purposes. It wouldn't take a psychic to predict that my life is gonna change a lot in the next few years! Ultimately, I recoginise God's sovreignty in my life, and His Will be done.

Thanks for reading until this part and getting to know a bit more about me :) I guess you would have noticed that I do not type about specific events that occur in my life frequently. Maybe it is me to leave out such details, and not reveal too much about myself haha.

Have a pleasant new year, and I've gotta go now. My typing stops here (so Chinese composition!), and I'd like to wish you all fellow surfers a Happy Lunar New Year. Don't take drugs!

All the best,
Joshua